How to Tell You’ve Invested Far, Far, FAR Too Much Emotionally Into a Project…

… I can’t discuss which project in any detail, but those who know will understand.

Reaction to the project is not only going badly, there are no less than three voices saying that the entire project should be scrapped.

This project was, in essence, a try-out for future, and much larger, potential projects. My defensiveness and emotional responses to fundamental changes will likely mark me as “Too Much Trouble to Work With” even if this text is any good, which from reaction, it’s not at all.

I really need to go through and post all the changes I’ve made on my own to the discussion list so that the editor can apply them to the final copy, but I can’t even open up MWord; my hands are shaking just typing this, much less working on the project.

I want to get away from the project, but I find myself checking email every two to three minutes to see what comments and responses have come in next.

I feel roughly like I did in high school; worthless, unloved, incompetent.

I had my first suicidal thoughts today in YEARS.

Chocolate doesn’t help; neither does porn; I try to play video games and the shakes only become worse as I immerse myself in the game to escape.

I’m totally unable to get any other work done, of any kind, including processing WLP mail order, which now that there’s money to ship stuff there’s no excuse for not doing.

HELP.

How to Tell You’ve Invested Far, Far, FAR Too Much Emotionally Into a Project…

… I can’t discuss which project in any detail, but those who know will understand.

Reaction to the project is not only going badly, there are no less than three voices saying that the entire project should be scrapped.

This project was, in essence, a try-out for future, and much larger, potential projects. My defensiveness and emotional responses to fundamental changes will likely mark me as “Too Much Trouble to Work With” even if this text is any good, which from reaction, it’s not at all.

I really need to go through and post all the changes I’ve made on my own to the discussion list so that the editor can apply them to the final copy, but I can’t even open up MWord; my hands are shaking just typing this, much less working on the project.

I want to get away from the project, but I find myself checking email every two to three minutes to see what comments and responses have come in next.

I feel roughly like I did in high school; worthless, unloved, incompetent.

I had my first suicidal thoughts today in YEARS.

Chocolate doesn’t help; neither does porn; I try to play video games and the shakes only become worse as I immerse myself in the game to escape.

I’m totally unable to get any other work done, of any kind, including processing WLP mail order, which now that there’s money to ship stuff there’s no excuse for not doing.

HELP.